Thursday, 11 April 2013

I did this in 2009 and I thought I'd, ah.. revise.

(I'm supposed to be writing my huge, 25% of my degree, final project right now, so - of course I'm posting this ridiculous survey on a blog I never, ever use. Of course I am.)

1. A picture of yourself, in your room.

conveniently taken yesterday! hello there.

2. A picture with someone you don't actually like.

this was a street preacher in edinburgh; he was standing on a wall dictating ("you're all going to hell", &c.) to a crowd gathered below him. me and caitlin, uh.. did not appreciate the authority that gave him and figured we'd.. put ourselves on the same level. his crowd dispersed.

3. A picture of you on your birthday.

this was taken at like 2:30am, but still - 25/6/2012! look at these dorks I love.

4. A picture of you when you were younger.

there are so many embarrassing photos that it's hard to know where to start, but this selfie from 2005 is.. pretty glorious. I look dead inside.

5. A picture of you in one of your favourite outfits.

this dress is forever one of my favourites! it only cost me £15 but I'm so incredibly in love with it, it's ridiculous.

6. A picture of you making a goofy face.

this is my twitter icon and also published in a local (not my town!) newspaper. go me.

7. A picture that you miiiight have edited to make yourself look more attractive.

I didn't edit this; it seems pretty safe to assume that Hazel did, though.

8. A picture of a night you regret.

hahahaha ha ha. hah. h.a..h..
(this part: not the regrettable bit. in case you were unsure.)

9. A picture of you truly being yourself.

I mean I'm pretty much.. being myself.. in every picture of me?? because they're pictures.. of me??

10. The most recent picture of you.

can be found in #1!

11. A picture of you being absolutely ridiculous.

a.. wonderful.. photo..

12. A picture of you showing off something new.

the coolest.

13. A picture of a time in your life that's over, but you wish it weren't.

I'm probably never gonna live with these dweebs again, and that makes me.. super sad.

14. A picture of a time in your life that's over, and you're so glad it is.

youtube nerd-culture and that haircut (or.. lack thereof) can stay in the past, thank you.

15. A picture of you when you were anything BUT happy.

this was without a doubt the worst week of my life and I'd really.. rather not think about it any more.

16. A picture of you that you had no idea was being taken.

why would you do this to me

17. A picture of you when you were a different person to who you are now.

I'm pretty sure that at this point I couldn't even imagine a world without monmouth comprehensive school, so.

18. A picture of you with someone you love.

look at this dweeb.

19. A picture of how you'd like the world to see you.

it's weird how different this is from the picture I put up last time I did this, but - I dunno. I think also I'm remembering how fun this night was and how cheerful I was and yeah.

20. A picture that describes how you'd like to spend every day.

these dorks are pretty great. (please imagine that caitlin is in this photo too. thank.)

21. A picture of a time when everything was changing.

I was packing up my room getting ready to leave for the last time and I figured I'd take a photo that sort of mirrored the one I took on the first night in that house (here!) - it ended up kind of ridiculous, but..
22. A picture that makes your heart hurt.

it really, genuinely feels like moving out of this house was the biggest heartbreak of my life, okay. it still - like, you know when you just want to go home? this is where home is to me.

23. A picture that makes your heart smile.

I love this dork so much it hurts. aw man.

24. A picture of one of the best days/nights of your life.

almost everything I can think of there's been a pretty big negative at some point, and this is no exception, but - this night I went to see my favourite band in their last ever show, with one of my best friends in the whole world who I miss A HECK OF A LOT, and it was.. pretty great. so.

25. And finally, your very most favourite picture of you.

Saturday, 16 June 2012

life things! a list of them!

so, about three years ago I did a thing.
I say this - about three years ago I thought 'oh, doing this thing would be a great idea!', half-heartedly planned it, and didn't actually do it at all. I made a blog post about it, though, and that's what really counts. My plan, back in the land of naivete and laziness, was to set 101 goals for myself to achieve over the next 1001 days.

July 2009: the land of naivete, laziness, and sugary cereal
Naturally, most of the goals I set for myself were terrible, terrible ideas, or things that I didn't really want to do when I was 17, let alone now that I'm nearing 20. I ended up doing 58 of the 101 things, though, which isn't too awful. I guess.

Clearly, I am now a much more reasonable and sensible person, so I think this is a thing that I'd like to try again, and learn from the mistakes I made last time. So that's what I'm doing here. Right here. In this blog post. This one that you're reading. 

Today is Sunday June 17th, 2012, which makes the end date of this Sunday March 15th, 2015. I guess a reasonable way to start this would be to think about where I might be in 2015; I'll be 22, a year out of university. At the moment I'm intending to work for a year and then travel for a few months, but after that I'm not sure - so potentially, at the end of this I could be working, travelling, or in postgrad education somewhere (or, well, doing none of these things and being very sad, but I'm going to be hopeful, here!) I'll be editing this post as I go, so I guess future Dani can fill you in here.

Hopefully I'm going to do better at setting reasonable goals this time - but I'll be honest. I don't really think I'm a much more reasonable and sensible person, at least as far as future planning goes. I'm not making any promises here, but I really just want something to organise myself into hopefully doing something with my life. I am, however, going to leave some spaces free so that I can set some things over the next few weeks or months! So, on with the THINGS, I suppose.

17th June, 2012: presumably also the land of naivete.

A key
Completed things

Things in progress
Incomplete things
Things that can't or won't be done


a. Academic things (as an undergraduate) 
starting small and relatively near here: these are things that I want or need to achieve in the next year related to my undergraduate degree in psychology.
1. GRADUATE. Ideally with a first class degree. This one is sort of the whole point.
2. Pass second year. I realise this is technically cheating, given that I'd already taken these exams by the start date, but I like a nice simple start, and - well. I don't find out whether this has happened until the 28th, anyway.
(update (29/7/2012) - I averaged 69.67 for the year, which is a first! Yes good.)
3. Select modules for third year. Again, this is an inevitability - I'll have to do this when I enroll in August.
4. Over Summer, research final year project thoroughly. Basically, when I meet with Lewis in September, I want to know everything I possibly can about the subject and have a clear plan for the project. No pressure or anything, though. (hahaha, no.)
5. Be sensible about deadlines. Although I have actually managed to submit everything on deadline for the past two years, there are quite a lot of occasions where I've started writing at 4am when an essay's due at 12pm. This is stupid and a thing I would like to not do any more, so for every coursework assignment in third year I would like to (i) start writing at least a week before the deadline and (ii) have something that I can hand in (even if it's just a solid first draft) at least 24 hours before the deadline; also I want to make sure I start seriously writing the final project a month before deadline (if this is realistic) and have something to hand in a week before.
6. Be sensible about revision. Basically, I need to start revising at least a month and a half before any exams I might have. At least. AT LEAST.
7. 100% Attendance (or as close as reasonably possible). I'll be honest: currently, I don't actually attend lectures. I'd like to change this so that in third year, I only miss lectures when I have a valid excuse. (examples of valid excuses: I'm sick, There is a once-in-a-lifetime concert I don't want to miss; examples of invalid excuses: I'm sleepy, It's raining and I don't want to walk)

b. Love-and-stuff.
this is probably the section that I care most about. yep.
8. Be in a serious relationship of some kind. At the start of this I.. I'd like to believe I could be in the same relationship at the end of this as I am now. But I don't necessarily think it's realistic to set specific goals around one person, so I'll stick with this for now.
9. I have a fear to get over. I would like to get over it soon.

c. Friends, and otherwise being a sociable human being.
because these people are important, too.
10. Stay in touch with those three. I feel like this is actually a given - Caitlin, Hazel and Cat are a constant in my life, and I just want them to continue to be so. Especially because we're all potentially going to be living in different places by the time this ends.
11. Stay in touch with the housemates. This should be simple next year - movie nights, social gatherings, and other Cardiff things - but potentially gets more difficult after graduation. I'd really like to keep them around, though.
12. Stay in touch with Monmouth people. That's the stage, the guys, and anyone else I happen to have picked up along the way.
13. Make university friends. I feel like I haven't really made an effort in getting to know anyone on my course, and I'd really like to have some people I can talk to in lectures, or borrow notes from, or talk about work with.
14. Make post-university friends. This is a terrifying prospect that I cannot deal with right now.

d. Life skills
I do not currently feel like a competent, adult human being. This is a thing that I would like to change.
15. Prepare 100 different meals or courses from scratch. I was initially going to set this as 'buy a 100 recipes book and cook everything in it', but I thought it might be easier to be able to choose things myself. Meals, soups, cakes, pancakes, salads, breads, you name it - so long as there are 100 of them, they're all different, and I've made them myself. They don't all have to be things I've never made prior to setting this goal.
(I have so not been counting here! we're on like. 20ish probably.)
16. Have five 'signature dishes'. They can be simple or cheap, but by the end of these 1001 days I'd like to have 5 meals I wouldn't be nervous about cooking for other people.
(update (29/7/2012): I'm workin' on one.)
17. Take driving lessons, and pass my driving test. Because good luck getting a job without that one, yo.
18. Become confident and comfortable making phonecalls. This is not a thing that should terrify me, this is not a thing that should terrify me, this is not a thing that should terrify me.
19. Learn to sew. It would probably be helpful if I didn't have to depend on my mother every time I needed to alter clothes.
20. Become confident talking to academic staff. I would quite like to ask people for references without shaking, and ask questions about work, and speak in full sentences rather than squeaks. ("it takes me like, two weeks to send an email without having a panic attack" "yes, I am starting to realise that". oh dear.)
21. From the start of third year, become a person who is capable of managing finances. BUDGETING. Budgeting! Not using a credit card! BUDGETING!

e. Health and Wellbeing
I feel like this is relatively self-explanatory.
22. Have a skin/haircare routine. Stick to it. I just wanna be smooooth.
23. Eat healthily. I'm not going to stop eating sugary or fatty foods, but I'd like to limit myself to a reasonable amount per day, snack on fruit instead wherever possible, eat at least two meals most days, and drink water instead of pop most of the time.
(update (29/7/2012): breakfast! breakfast is a thing that apparently I can do! weird.)
24. Exercise daily. I don't mean a lot - just half an hour of walking will do.
25. Look after yo' teeth. Brushing twice a day for two minutes each is a given already, but dental checkups! flossing! becoming one of those people! I think I have had enough of fillings forever, thank you.
26. Sexual health. Just be a sensible human being, okay?
27. Medical checkups. Be registered with a doctor. Know where that doctor is. Go and see that doctor! If I get letters about screening, GO. Go! Be sensible! SENSIBLE.

f. Work and things
28. Volunteering and retail experience. Any time that I'm unemployed and not studying or travelling, I'd like to volunteer in a charity shop. Firstly, because retail experience is probably a useful thing to have on a CV, Secondly, because boredom sucks a whole bunch, and finally because warm fuzzy helping feels.
(update (29/7/2012): Cancer Research UK is a pretty okay place to work.)
29. Volunteering and career-related experience. Further CV-building stuff here: Cardiff university has a lot of student volunteering options that can be related to my field of study, and it would probably be helpful to have some work experience related to psychology on my CV.
30. Get a job. Not a career job, just a saving money for after university and travelling job.
31. Write a CV. A fleshed out and positive CV that makes me sound like a professional, employable person.
32. Look the part. Ensure that I have a suitable outfit for any job interviews I might have to attend.

g. Travel
I would like to go places and experience things. Partly because this means putting off the real world for a bit longer, and partly because things are exciting.
33. Travel to all of the bits of Great Britain. Wales, England, Scotland, Northern Ireland and the Republic of Ireland. All of them.
34. Travel somewhere with friends. I feel like this is maybe self-explanatory.
35. Travel somewhere alone. This doesn't have to be too far - Just for one day, even, so long as it's somewhere new and purely recreational.
36. Travel in Europe. at least one mainland European country! at least one! come on now.
37. Visit another continent. any of the other continents. Any of them.
38. Spend at least three months either
       (i) in America
(to include route 66)
       (ii) in Thailand (possibly teaching English as a foreign language)
       (iii) inter-railing across Europe.
       (iv) travelling in some combination of these.
39. Take 50 train journeys.
Swim in the sea. It's been far too long since I've done this and yeah, sads.

h. Blogging and other forms of life documentation
I like keeping records of stuff. Keeping records of stuff is a nice thing to do.
41. Take 5000 photographs. This is a thing that I managed to do in 2008 alone, but I've gotten out of the habit. I'd like to get back into it. (webcam photos don't count here).
42. Continue to dailybooth continuously. If dailybooth goes down, or if internet access is not a possibility, I want to continue taking a photo of myself and writing something daily.
43. Food blogging/journalling. Linked to thing #15; take a photo of, or at least write down, every one of the 100 things cooked. Even if it's a horrible, horrible failure.
44. Ten disposable cameras. I really like being surprised looking back at old photos, and film cameras make this a lot easier. I want to use up ten disposable cameras in this time period.
45. Buy a travel journal and use it. 
46. Keep up this blog. I want to update on progress on this thing, and maybe occasionally just give life updates. Because most of the posts here are hideously embarrassing, but reading them back is so nostalgic and fun. Updates at least monthly.
47. Keep tickets. Specifically, train and plane tickets. I want to know where I've been.

i. Music, books, films and things
this is a section for things I want to read and watch and see live and yes.
48. Go to at least 20 gigs. I don't know whether this is achievable or not, but..
49. See Fun. live. I had tickets for their May show and I had to miss them because of exams, which was thoroughly depressing, so I sort of want to make up for that.
50. See Laura Marling live. It's been like four years I should probably do something about this obsession.
51. See Regina Spektor live. Ditto.
52. Go to a music festival. No, Monmouth doesn't count.
53. Attend every day of Monmouth Music Festival 2012. Also other years, if I'm in Monmouth at the time.
54. Have the complete Thrice discography. They've been my favourite band since I was thirteen so it seems a bit baffling that this isn't something I've done already.
55. Discover at least 10 new bands. New music! good things!
3/10 st, lu, rad
56. Read 25 books unrelated to my degree. This feels like a low estimate for such a long time, but I'm spectacularly lazy when it comes to reading.
57. Finish reading "Dude, you're a fag" because gender and treatment thereof are really interesting.
58. Watch 25 films. Again, not a thing I usually do. Movie nights, though!
59. Go to Hay Festival. While I can still get student tickets. Next year.

j. Things I want to own
I like stuff.
60. Kitchen things! Chopping boards that aren't horrifying! A pastry brush! Mixing bowls! pans!
61. A new camera. Barnacle Bernard is lovely but he's getting a bit old and creaky, and I'd like a mid-range nikon dslr to take over most of his duties.
62. A new laptop. Because Thaddeus is falling apart.
(update (29/7/2012): hello there, Clarissa. How are you doing?)
63. Organise my underwear. I just want to be a person who matches and wears bras that fit, is this too much to ask?
64. A tent. This just seems like a sensible and useful thing.
65. At least 10 warm jumpers. Winter clothes are a thing I have avoided a lot and I should fix this.
66. Three pairs of good quality jeans that fit. My current count here is 1. Hm.
67. Foundation that matches my skin and does not do horrible things. Basically, expensive.
68. Store cupboard ingredients for cooking. Oils, spices, curry pastes..
69. Plain, coloured vans/converse oxfords. Give me casual, giiiiiive it to me.
70. Dusky purple suede boots. I have wanted these since 2007 so I feel like maybe I should just buy them..

k. House and living
....I feel like maybe these section descriptions aren't always necessary.
71. Have a clean bedroom. This isn't a thing I'm particularly good at, but I want my bedroom to be thoroughly clean at least once a week.
72. Decorate the 2012-2013 house's bedroom. In a way that isn't a creepy photographic shrine to my life.
73. Keep. Communal. Areas. Clean. IMPORTANT.
74. Do not live with parents. I just really do not want this.

l. Things to learn about
Not strictly related to university. I'm just curious.
75. Gender. I want to know a lot more about this. A lot more.
76. Sexuality. Uh-huh.
77. Politics. Basically, when I tell my mother that her political views are awful, I want to be a lot more clear in backing them up.
78. Linguistics. People! Words! Interesting! eep!

l. Miscellaneous
79. Own a pet.
If in a financially stable position where this would be a reasonable and responsible thing to do. If not, this is a free space.
80. Dip-Dye my hair. I want to let my hair grow slightly longer than I might usually, bleach the ends, and then dye them purple and pink. Then, when I decide this was an awful idea, cut them off.
81. Find an amazing bad-tv related costume. I have created a bad tv theme for my birthday party and oh god I have no idea how to stick to it.
(update (29/7/2012): Salem. Salem. Yes.)
82. Complete all of the crash bandicoot games. My childhood, my childhood just isn't done yet.
83. Clear out my wardrobe and sell or donate anything I won't wear. I have too much stuff.
(update (29/7/2012): I donated about 50 things to CRUK. Presumably this is one that will go on and off repeatedly, though.)
84. Thoroughly back up both laptops. This is a thing I should really get around to doing..
85. Take down the photo wall. the time has come.
86. Wallpaper and paint the monmouth bedroom. Because taking down the photo wall will basically just be destruction.
87. Watch sunrise five times. on purpose.

88. Buy the sims 3. is a totally reasonable life goal and I am not grasping at straws here.
89. Back up all of my dailybooth photos. sssssssssssseriously.
(update (29/7/2012) I think they're all currently backed up SOMEWHERE, but this is going to be an In Progress until I get the red laptop back and make sure they're still on there, and also until I stop boothing (which won't be until dailybooth shuts down, so))
90. Experiment more with light graffiti. This was a really cool thing and yeah I wish I'd done more of it so :)
91. Make a good impression on George's parents. Yes, I do think I will need all 1001 days to do this.
(update (29/7/2012) apparently they like me?!)
92. Complete a TEFL course. Life plans! Decisions! Wow!
93. Organise my grandparents' photos. I've been putting this off for far too long, too. Hundreds of photos from the 1940s onwards that should definitely be scanned in and stuff.
94. Back up all of my dailybooth blurbs. It's a diary, so I'd really like to keep the entries for this.
95. (free space)
96. (free space)
97. (free space)
98. (free space)
99. (free space)
100. (free space)
101. At the time of completion, be either:
        (i) in postgraduate education
        (ii) travelling
        (iii) in full-time, career-related employment.

Okay dorks let's see how this goes.

Friday, 17 February 2012

this is a survey what I did in 2009

..I'm repeating it now for kicks and nostalgia and shit.
hi, blog! it's been a long time, and no-one reads you any more, so I'm pretty much just posting self-indulgent surveys and the occasional picture o'er here. you don't need to stick around, it's okay. it's allll okay.

Do you love the last boy you were talking to?
in person or on the internet? actually, the answer to both is no.

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
That would be a literally terrible idea.

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
listening to Ben Howard and staring wistfully out of my window, because I am a ridiculous cliche.

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
Technically Daniel. But sooooooooooomething tells me he wasn't being serious.

Last restaurant you went to?
Pizza Express in St David's 2, I believe.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
mummy dearest.

Did you have an exciting last weekend?
it was okay! I was at home, mostly, but me and Caitlin went out in Cardiff and it was entertaining, so.

Have you ever crawled through a window?
with alarming regularity.

Where were you at 1am Sunday morning?
In the Moon Club, with Caitlin and Gruff/Griff/Ruth.

Is there a secret you've never told your parents?
um. I mean, I'm not really.. consciously hiding anything big? but I mean I imagine there are things that I have deliberately not told people that I have also deliberately not told my parents, so..

Do you like yourself?
I'm kind of a dork.

Who is someone you wish you could fix things with?
Hmm. I don't think there's really anyone I want to fix things with, because that implies some kind of angry breaking and.. yeah, I got nothin'.

Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
pretty much the whole of 2010, and most of my first year of uni. Is that too much to ask? That's probably too much to ask.

Are you an emotional person?
I.. imagine that.. most people are.. yes.

What's something that can always make you feel better?
I have like a list of things called "instructions when sad".
entries include this bookmark:
click if sad, hot chocolate, the Fun. song barlights, baking, and watching Rich be a massive idiot, amongst other things.

Are you a cuddler?
no. Like, not at all.

Will this weekend be a good one?
there's possibly a gig on Sunday? but otherwise, no, I'm pretty sure it's gonna be, like, cleaning and working.

What do you want right now?
someone to clean my room for me, a hug and some conversation, and.. a rocketship.

Who can always cheer you up?
I'm gonna go with Rich, because he has been the cause of more I-was-almost-crying-and-now-I-am-laughing incidents than anyone else, I think.

But if there's something seriously up, it's always Caitlin, Hazel and Cat.

Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you?
Honestly, I don't remember. Probably.

What is your relationship status?
terminally single.

Look behind you, what do you see?
my feet, some pillows, and the wall/ceiling-y alcove.

What would you name your future daughter?
god. um. this is something that - like, I'm not sure I even want children.

Who and where was the last concert you went to?
the word virus essay, technically. But if you're talkin' something I went to just for the music, it was Marc Eitzel & Richard Buckner. Both in Cardiff.

What did you eat for lunch today?
a greggs spicy one. mm, nutritious.

Whats on your schedule for tomorrow?
heading into town, possibly hangin' at the cardiff gathering for a bit if it wouldn't be too awkward, looking for some high-waisted jeans, and then going home to copy up notes and hope my housemates are being sociable (ha)

The last song you heard?
Promises - Ben Howard.

Do you still talk to any of your exes?
I mean, I'm not like, best friends with either of them or anything. But yeah, I guess I talk to them occasionally.

If you had to eat 1 thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
how specific are we talkin', here? like, can I say "food"? or "mexican food"?

Has your number 2 on your friends ever made you cry?
This.. who is number two on my friends? Probably not, anyway.

How do you feel about abortions?
Pro-choice, and very much so.

Do you eat junk food everyday?
pretty much, yeah.

How often do you drive?
I (still) don't.

Where did you last drive to?
the last place I was driven to was Cardiff. by Caitlin. so have that information. :p

Who was the last person to touch you?
this.. is not something I really keep track of.

How did you and your number 1 become friends?
I love 'your number one' as though that's just a normal way to describe someone. Oh, the bebo age.
but, uh - school.

How late did you stay up last night and why?
I was up until about half three, because Daniel and Nicolas were pestering me with James Blunt lyrics.

What's the connection between you and the last person you texted?
That was Rhys, and he's a friend (who I sort of miss, if I'm honest).

Do you like someone?
romantically? not seriously, right now.

How's your life lately?
it's okay. Kind of lonelier than I'd like, again.

Do you know anyone that is currently locked up?
I don't.

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
yeah, Dean - for a year and four months.

What do you think about the current gas prices?
they don't affect me, and there are only so many things that don't affect me that I can care about.
gas prices are certainly not one of those things.

Are you happier single or in a relationship?
in a relationship with someone who I'm very comfortable with. Otherwise, single.

Have you ever requested a song on the radio?

Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?
Um, I think that was Hazel. So, no, I absolutely do not.

When is the last time you took a nap?
a couple of weeks ago, maybe?

When was the last time you talked to your most recent ex?
he texted me five days ago. It was a short and awkward conversation.

Did you have a good birthday this year?
it was okay! We didn't really do anything especially exciting.

What was the last thing you heard someone say?
"that's three-sixty four then, please"?

first person under ' J' on your cell phone?
Jake Bird. It's probably an old number, too.

What's the most interesting thing that happened to you today?
nothing interesting happens to me ever.

If your best friend liked your ex, what would you do?
which ex? If it was Ollie, I would be completely okay with that. If it was Dean I guess I'd be a little weirded out? Like, partly because he is mental, and lives far away, and is mental, and partly because we were together for long enough that the idea of one of my friends being into him is weird as hell.

Name 4 people that you can tell ANYTHING to:
Caitlin, Hazel, Cat, and.. um. That's kind of it, I think.

If one of your ex's came up to you and apologized for something they did wrong, what would you do?
I mean, I can't think of anything either of them did that would really require an apology? But I guess I'd just be like "dude, that's okay. we're cool."

When is the last time you touched drumsticks?
THIS IS A BIZARRE QUESTION. But it would've been at the house christmas party, when we were playing band hero.

Who was the last person to text you? and the last person you texted?

Rhys, for both-
me: It was delicious. Obviously. Good work? Are pub quizzes things that people with lives do, or...?
Rhys: CAME FOURTH. Got wristbands.

What is your favorite color?
cherry red.

What color are your eyes?
blue/green. mostly.

What is a compliment you receive often?
clothes-related compliments, usually. Or "you're really naturally smart!" (implication: "but you're also a lazy ass!")

Do you like your parents?
I do, for the most part.

Which do you prefer, to eat or sleep?
this question is literally baffling, because - I mean, you can't only do one? so?

Do you look more like your mom or your dad?
my mum.

How long does it take you to shower?
about twenty minutes.

Are you flexible?
Oh god no. I can barely touch my knees.

Can you speak any other language than English?
gallwn siarad tipyn bach o gymraeg.

What is the last letter of your middle name?

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
about 8 and a half.

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
yes? not doing that would be stupid.

Are you scared of flying?

What do you sleep in?
a bed. hurrr.
okay, no - um, just whatever t-shirt I was wearing that day and underwear, usually.

Do you like funny people or serious people?
people who can be both.

What do you have planned for tonight?
cleaning all the crap out of my room, trying desperately to figure out what it is that makes me blue and-
okay, no, that's a song lyric.
Cleaning my room, copying up notes, and then sort of collapsing in the living room and watching really terrible tv.

Is the last person you kissed older than you?
yeah, by about four years.

Do you prefer myspace or socialsplash?
I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT SOCIALSPLASH IS, and no-one uses myspace, this isn't 2007.

Do you have a favorite item of clothing?
yes! this dress:

Do you like messages or comments better?
comments! I mean, on dailybooth. Because messages are usually creepy old men.

Last movie you saw in theaters?
it was sherlock.. a game of shadows.

Last thing you ate?
greggs. Just, the building.

What was last thing you drank?
Dr. Peps.

Are you happy right now?
I'm not unhappy.

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
oh god. social skills. I want social skills.

Who makes you happiest right now?
I couldn't pick one person; my friends are all awesome.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
probably taking stupid photos of myself for the internet. yep.

Are you left handed?

What was for dinner tonight?
I haven't eaten dinner yet tonight, but it's probably just pasta.

What is the last thing you thought about?
pasta, seeing as- actually, it was the previous answer to this question. which was also 'pasta'. So, pasta.

When is your birthday?
25th June

Do you want to get married & have children one day?
I guess I want to get married? I mean, I mostly just want to be in a happy relationship.
children-- I don't know. I don't.. know.

Do you regret anything?
yes. Not taking things seriously enough in late 2009, not deciding to make my own friends in lectures in 2010, not properly befriending Peter.

How do you want to die?
I don't, really.

Do you think you are attractive?
compared to the last time I was asked this question, yes. But given that attractiveness is all relative and comparison-based.. I spend a lot of time around very attractive people, so, not really.

Any summer plans for 2012?
Thrice, Newton Faulkner, hopefully Scotland again, exams, Monmouth Festival, dorkin' around with my girls, Barry Island and a birthday party, spending a lot of money in coffee #1, freaking out about results, trying to get a job probably, a lot of spoons with the guys, never-ending path, missing the housemates, and freaking out about third year, probably.

Monday, 6 December 2010

Yule Ball.

Last night was the yule ball, which was, y'know, amazing. It had just the right mix of drunk people, entertaining DJs, laughable food, creepy taxi drivers, harry potter references, sparkly dresses, mini water-pistols and the time warp, which is a pretty rare experience. I'm going to sleep for a million years.

The white city, she is so beautiful;
Upon the black-soot icicled roofs,
Ooh, see how I fall, See how I fall,
Like the snow.

Friday, 3 December 2010


I don't think I like living in a city. I miss silence and open spaces, birds and squirrels, and being able to see the stars. I miss being driven through empty roads in the dark with the windows open. I miss large expanses of water and snow actually staying as snow.

But then when I'm home I miss people and noise, pretty lights and 24 hour shops, fast food and public transport and cinemas that actually show recent films.

I don't know. I think mostly I just miss him, because he isn't in either of those places. If I'm honest, I'm not sure he's anywhere but my head right now. There was someone who looked like him in a club last night and I didn't deal with it too well. I miss hope and excitement for what's to come.

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
at least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)